[00:00.30] I shut everybody out 'cause I'm scared of rejection
[00:02.56] Turns out, when you do that, you just write away your friendships
[00:05.84] Scared I'll never make it 'cause the game is so congested
[00:08.85] Scared I'll never make it 'cause the throne is too contested
[00:11.87] Swear I'm 'boutta relapse, think I need someone to step in
[00:14.97] Pills will be the death of me, they're my lethal weapon
[00:18.24] Pray my death soon, I've been counting down the seconds
[00:21.27] Hoping heaven's nearing me 'cause, yeah, I got some questions, like
[00:24.17] Why would God bless me, and then he proceed to curse me?
[00:26.78] Feels like every person that I fall in love with hurts me
[00:29.93] Why doesn't the reaper take me if he's always lurking?
[00:33.13] And why does every version of myself feel like the worst me?
[00:35.88] Is it all in my head? If I fall to my death
[00:38.86] Like, what's the ticket count to my funeral?
[00:42.22] Swear I'm always oppressed, never know what's coming next
[00:44.87] Like, why the hell am I always so miserable?
[00:48.12] Darkness pulling me down till I'm a carcass
[00:51.46] Guess at least then, I'll no longer have a hardship
[00:54.50] World's cutthroat, sick of always being guarded
[00:57.57] Why does no one want me when I always try my hardest?
[01:00.53] Tell me, "It gets better," kinda feeling like you're lying
[01:03.66] Try to lift the vibe, but inside I'm always dying
[01:06.57] Devils in disguise always keeping me distracted
[01:09.51] Worst kinda evil hides behind the most attractive
[01:12.89] I try to break my habits, but it's hard when you're a addict
[01:15.43] Just staring down my traumas on a track, they call it talent
[01:18.82] Every time I cry for help, I get some brand new plaques in
[01:21.77] Helping all these kids, but who helps me when I'm crashing?
[01:24.12] Just take me down to the other side
[01:28.03] Breaking, should I go? I can't decide
[01:31.04] Waste me, I got nowhere to run and hide
[01:33.83] Hate me, maybe then I'll feel alive
[01:36.89] Cycles never ending when you're racking up a profit
[01:39.99] I thought love would save me from myself, but I lost it
[01:42.99] Now I'm on my own again, yeah, it's nothing new to me
[01:45.96] The old ways, I'm never going back to how it used to be
[01:48.86] It feels impossible to try to overcome
[01:51.83] When the world is against me, I wish I could be enough
[01:54.64] I wish I could be stronger, but instead I go numb
[01:57.64] I can't go any longer, I'm done
[02:00.22] So these are my confessions
[02:05.87] Yeah, these are my confessions
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